/free me


twenty - three. german. stubborn. smartass. reserved. ambitious. opinionated. family person. independent. slick mouth. intelligent. passionate. very impatient. real. loud. humorous.

■ flickr
■ photoshop actions
■ crafts
■ myspace

/them

■ nat
■ chris
■ melissa
■ cakespy


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Wednesday, June 11, 2008
I love me some rain!



It looks like it will start raining within the next few minutes and I'm really looking forward to it. It matches my mood perfectly.

I had the 60 little square felts in the mail yesterday - how exciting. Lupin also sent me a really sweet card & 'Thank you' note, which was so awesome and sweet of her to do. This got me so excited that I started to work on new felties right away and so far I finished another new needlecase and later on today I will start on a pouch. I still have no idea what I want it to look like so I gotta do that first.



Why do people contantly try to change me? Am I not good enough the way I am?

Monday, June 9, 2008
nomnomnom

I can't believe it, but I sold two more of my crafts yesterday! :) The pencilbox and the needlecase with the flower have been sold for 11.45€ - I'm so excited. It's not enough to pay all my bills of course, but it's a start.




It's getting late & Nip/Tuck is on.

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Sunday, June 1, 2008
late night blogging

Every day I plan on updating my journal, but then I end up doing something else. Sometimes I wonder why I even bother to re-create a new blog when I don't really use it in the end anyways. I do want to write more often, because I love and miss blogging. Updating my paper journal is not the same.
I probably should be sleeping by now - but I'm still wide awake at 12:15am and sleep is no option right now. I'm feeling so upset today and I don't even really know why. Actually I have been feeling like this for weeks already. I just keep wondering and thinking about why it's so hard for me to trust people nowadays. I meet new people here and there and most of them are wonderful people, probably trust-worthy...yet I find myself doubting every word they speak when it comes to me or friendships in general. I've been taken for granted, stabbed in the back and betrayed so many times before that I put up this really huge wall around me and it's almost impossible for me to let anyone in. It scares me sometimes - because I don't want to feel or be like this for the rest of my life. Friendships are - in my opinion - one of the most important things in life. Right next to families. Everything seems to easier with a good friend by your side.

I miss my best friend so much - I really wish she lived closer. It'd make everything easier - at least that's what I'd like to think.

Onto something completely different. I finally sold my very first felty yesterday. The white skull with the pink bow that I posted and talked about before. I was so happy when I got the E-Mail from ebay - telling me the skull has been sold. :D Yippie! It's not a lot and may not seem like a big deal to most people, but it means a lot to me. Finally my hard work is paying off. So I saved up to 55€uros now and it's time to pay some bills. All my money - that I make from selling the felties or Photoshop actions go straight to my bank account to pay bills, etc. It's sad, but also a really good feeling. :)

I can't wait to get the felt, which I ordered a few days ago, in the mail!

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